Jordan Wilson: Initial post

Okay, so I thought it was about time I got down to writing this report, as I am leaving in 35 days (a scary thought!)?

It’s hard to know where to start when talking about such a life-changing subject. Maybe I should tell you a bit about myself and how I came to writing this report. People would probably normally say that from a young age they were always going to take a year out, I was definitely not one of those children. Up until about Primary 7 I absolutely hated staying over night at anyone’s houses, even my best friends who both live in the same village as me; this is probably worrying coming from someone who has decided to leave home for a year, but you will be glad to know I have definitely grown out of this phase in my life. When I got the age of about 15 and University was being talked about, there was part of me that just wanted to explore but I kept saying “No” because I only focused on the negatives of leaving home, like missing my family, and not the positives, which I could not possibly fit onto one page. At the beginning of sixth year we got lots of talks about our options for the year ahead and this is when I heard of Project Trust. I decided to go along to the talk with my friend Jess to keep her company. I think it was the enthusiasm of Ally (who was doing the talk) that really swayed it for me.

Project Trust has a week’s selection course up on the Isle of Coll. They really push your boundaries; getting you to dig lazy beds, teach lessons and so much more – its like a mini gap year in itself! In the end I did get selected but to be honest, I still wasn’t 100% sure of what I wanted to do with myself and when I found out that I did have this decision to make, I was nervous and scared and I didn’t know what to do. I talked to everyone about it, including ex-gappers, but in the end, the decision was really up to me. Obviously I decided to go, as I wouldn’t be sitting writing this if I hadn’t and I am so glad that I did. I decided whilst walking to Asda; thinking to myself that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity and that I should go for it!

Since then it has been fundraising, exams, and then more fundraising. And after the fundraising it has been rucksack shopping, walking boot shopping – the list is endless! I would like to say a massive thank you to everyone who have helped and supported me over the last few months; I couldn’t have done it without you all.

I have just got back from training on Coll, which can definitely be said to be an emotional roller coaster; I have never felt so low at one point and then high the next. But it was all worth it, I met my family for the next year and they are all amazing people and I now know that I will be an super teacher and that I’m going to get the most I can possibly get out of my year. This year is going to give me so much: I’m going to experience a new culture, meet so many amazing people, including my country group. We all get on so well and I think that we are going to be the best family of 8 that you can get! I know I will come back from this year with a changed perspective on life and a truly amazing experience that will be with me forever. Though even with all these exciting thoughts and feelings, I have been an emotional wreck. I have sat and cried for what feel like hours, I have cried at the most pathetic of things; I have had doubts about leaving. In all honesty I am scared. I know that in the next year I will miss home, I will most likely become ill and I will definitely cry. But this is normal and I would be slightly worried if these things didn’t happen.

But looking back on this, I can see that the positives of this year definitely rule out the negatives and that I am going to have a magical year in Namibia.

Thanks again for all your help and support, you will be hearing from me soon (when I’m in Otjikondo!). I can’t wait.